Beautiful

“Hey.
Yes, you.
I’m talking to you, Lizzie.”

These were the first words
I had heard from him.
This is the first time I had heard
Sentences instead of a grin.

I didn’t know
What his intentions were.
We had never spoken before.
And people whispered, “Why is he talking to
her?”.

I turned around
With my head turned down.
I heard him start to walk towards
me.
I was in the moment..
I didn’t see.

He was standing
Smack in front of me.
Groups were laughing,
And I was getting rosy cheeks.

“Did you know
That you’re beautiful, Lizzie?”.
I immediately said in a low voice
“No”.

He had to be joking.
This couldn’t possibly be
Real.
Maybe he was just poking
Fun.

His hand went to my chin.
My head was raised up.
And there was the grin
Every girl had come to love.

He put his head back
And laughed.
I felt like I was just
Slapped.

He released his hand
And it all went away.
He went back to stand
Near his friends.
Another average day.

—-

This is a real life experience and I honestly regret liking him at all. He turned out to be a drug abuser and he cheated on all of his girlfriends. I’m glad he went away from him. I didn’t have to experience any pain from him.

Feedback is appreciated. Negative comments will NOT be tolerated on ANY of my posts. I know the difference between criticism and negative feedback.

Thanks for reading,

Lizzie

“How are you?”

I’m fine.

That’s my response whenever asks me “How are you?”.
I don’t want them to see that I’m actually blue.

People refer to  me as the sun.
They all see a bright, smiling girl.
No worries or struggles- just fun.

Behind that mask is a girl
Hidden from the world.
Because she knows that people will judge her.

She hides her insecurities with a small smile.
And no one noticed.
At least not for awhile.

But then came today.
The day when the false mask went completely away.

And out came a fragile little soul.
One whose story has not yet been told.
For she has been hidden away for so long,
That she does not know what is right and what is wrong.

That girl that came out
The one you now see?
It’s me.
Lizzie.

School

I like the people at school but some of them are just plain annoying. There’s this girl named Nicole who thinks that she is literally the queen of everything. She tried pushing me down the stairs today and I was about to punch her when my friend told me to just keep walking.

But why should I keep walking? Shouldn’t she get in trouble for doing that? She never has a consequence for misbehaving. It is so fucking annoying..

Any advice for me? Feedback would be appreciated.

Cheers,

Lizzie

Depression Fucking Sucks

I hate having depression. Shout out to all the suicide survivors out there. Right now, I feel like everything is crashing down around me. My crush is bullying me, my best friend is calling me a whore, and the people at school just annoy me.

I have no one to turn to and I just need someone right now. If you’re reading this.. Just comment. Thanks if you read this.

Cheers,

Lizzie

Who the H is Lizzie?

I’m Lizzie Rose. I’ve never had a blog before and I don’t know how to really use this thing.

I guess I’ll just post what I’m feeling throughout the day. Sometimes it’s good to let yourself be heard and let others know what’s up.

My real name is Elizabeth, but you can call me Lizzie, hence the name “callmelizzie”. My posts will be pretty damn boring but if you read this, then stick along for the journey.

Cheers,

Lizzie